You asked for this.

It's funny how I spent nearly 6 years single, jumping through one night stands
and temporary girlfriends. Short lived relationship and drunken nights
wondering what to do with my life. I stayed up late watching netflix
longing for new friendships as my high school friends slowly deteriorated
and become non existent. I don't believe in religion or prayer or what
have you. But I asked for it I wished for it, I wished I would meet a woman
that I could spend my life with maybe just maybe have a happy life, whatever
that means.. *laff*..

And now nearly 7 months later she's here, she's not perfect and we get along
( for the most part ) but after being alone for so long it's hard to adjust to
having someone in your life, especially when she wants to spend every waking
minute every weekend with you.

I miss being able to get drunk and smoke however much I want without having
anyone breathing down my neck about this that or whatever...

I feel trapped, can't live with her can't live without her, can't dump her
since I'll never find another like her.

I dream of the day that the stress pill comes into the pharmaceutical market.